Have you ever...

Do not tell me what I feel
You have no idea
You think your hurt is greater than mine
Have you ever considered we might be equal?

Have you ever thought that maybe it was hard to watch you?
How it feels to watch you kill yourself a little more everyday?
And you tell me i have no idea what hurt is...

Have you ever stopped to think?

You say i don't care...
That i don't know anything about you
That all i do is pity you

I have no pity for you at all
Why should i?
Is that what you want from me?
Pity?
I hardly have any respect for you anymore...
I may have once felt bad, even wept for you
But you are so bitter
So angry...

You push everyone away...

So stop telling me that i don't listen
That i don't care
Because i try
So hard
To understand you.
But you push and shove me away
And then yell at me for it.

Have you ever stopped to think?

Your Call...

My heart is caving in on itself
The edged are ripping and tearing
Scabs grind on each other
Tiny pieces of dried memories flake off into a fine powder
It hurts
Emotions erupt to the surface
Trying to help, they only make a mess
And i am left here alone to clean it up
Not knowing how, i slip is my own tears
There us no reason to try and stand again
I will only fall once more

Some how i always find myself back here
This desolate wasteland
Alone
I know there is help, but me ears wont absorb their words
I only focus on you
You hurt to look at
Like the sun
You shine bright over me
But you are relentless
My eyes burn and tear
You are cruel, and your heat to much to handle
I try to bargin with you
But you wont have it, and all the more radiate your deadly waves and cook me alive

My heart has caved in on itself
Its soft and flimsy
And wont stand on its own
I'm vulnerable

So this is where we stand

Will you take a swing?
Or will you help me up?

I want you back from the bitter sky
So you may walk among the flowers that will kiss you tired feet...

You matterd so much
You atterd more than anything in the world
And yout ook yourself away
Your selfish
A fool
You are so ungreatful
If only you say what you had
If only you hove relized that you didnt deserve what you had

You have changed

Your best friends is feeling lost
Im feeling lost
Missing you
But now im not so sure your worth missing
You feel like a waste of time
A waste of memorie space...
I only say this because

This is what i have become to you
What we have become to you

And you dont care...
Do you expect me to?
Why the hell would i want to see you
Want to be your friend
You treat us all like garbage

YOu make me angry
You only think of your self
I knew it all along
But now imm accepting it
No more lies

No more

Rain

Rain, rain, stay today
Wash all of my stress away
Rip it all from my eyes
And soothe me with your lulibies...

After all this has passed
I still will remain
After I'v cried my last
There wil be beauty from pain...
- Beauty from pain

Your Choice

There are some truths that need to be shown to you
There are somethings i need to say
There are somethings that come in betwee us
There are somethings that get in the way

But im such a coward
But im such a fool
Im not understanding
Im judging you
I rule

You think im thease things
When really im not
The things that you do are so rite
But there not

And you need to hear it
I need to say
That evry day you do this
I will stand in your way
Because i love you too much
To let you go astray
From the path that you walked on
And even before you say
You hate me and loath me
You will not pry me away

I love you to much
To wach us end this way

What the hell is wrong with us?!
Can you tell me?
NO?
Go figures...
We were all to freeking blind to see it
To freeking caught up in our own crap
Ya, tell yourself
How much your issues are so much more important

SHUT UP!

You didnt see
You dont know
You wont know
Cuz you cant listen

Shame on us

SHAME ON EVRY FREEKING ONE OF US!

we didnt see...
WE DIDNT SEE...

and now..
I fear its to late..

CONGRATS ON THE CRAPPY FRIEND AWAR...
Congrats for another life down the toilet...

All because we didnt see..
All because you'll never see...

dont try to fix it now...