Your Choice

There are some truths that need to be shown to you
There are somethings i need to say
There are somethings that come in betwee us
There are somethings that get in the way

But im such a coward
But im such a fool
Im not understanding
Im judging you
I rule

You think im thease things
When really im not
The things that you do are so rite
But there not

And you need to hear it
I need to say
That evry day you do this
I will stand in your way
Because i love you too much
To let you go astray
From the path that you walked on
And even before you say
You hate me and loath me
You will not pry me away

I love you to much
To wach us end this way

What the hell is wrong with us?!
Can you tell me?
NO?
Go figures...
We were all to freeking blind to see it
To freeking caught up in our own crap
Ya, tell yourself
How much your issues are so much more important

SHUT UP!

You didnt see
You dont know
You wont know
Cuz you cant listen

Shame on us

SHAME ON EVRY FREEKING ONE OF US!

we didnt see...
WE DIDNT SEE...

and now..
I fear its to late..

CONGRATS ON THE CRAPPY FRIEND AWAR...
Congrats for another life down the toilet...

All because we didnt see..
All because you'll never see...

dont try to fix it now...

Im Sorry

I cant do it any more
I can answer any more
I cant listen anymore
And I'm sorry

I cant take it anymore
I cant say it anymore
I cant help anymore
I'm sorry

Your dragging me down something slippery and cold
A steep icy slope
And my fingers cant hold

I'm trying to catch on
But so many times I've told
Answers to your questions
My brain is growing mold

With all the empty answers
Your to heavy to hold
Now we both slip down way to far

Some where deep

Dark

Cold

And I'm Sorry

My Short Complex

My head is empty
Feelings
Gone

Been waiting
For you
Far to long

My heart?
Envy?
That's what you thought...

I wanted to change for you
Now I'm to far gone...


I couldn't change you
But I let you change me

I hate what you've done
I hate what i see

I miss my old self
I don't think you know...

Its time to search now
But where did i go?

Dear Red,

I made a list of what we are...


Batman and Robin
Calvin and Hobbes
Thing 1 and Thing 2
Mario and Luigi
Mullder and Scully
Bonnie and Clyde
PB & J
Ben and Jerry
Burt and Ernie
Frodo and Sam
Han Solo and Chewie
Spongbob and Patrick
Shaggy and Scooby
Mac and Cheese
Bill and Ted
Fred Flinstone and Barney Rubble
Tom and Jerry
Kimya and Adam

Angus and Troy



Just to name a few of the many... I'm writing this while you are away...i miss you SO much... i mean, where would i be without you?!?!

your my Troy, my Frodo, my Bill... and i want you back...

i cant be a dynamic duo by myself :(

The Begging

Evry time

That cold

Sharp

Blade

Makes contact with your skin

I dig a hole deep down inside

And die a bit within

No matter what i say to you

Tell you i am your friend

You disregard my warning

It happens again and again

So please

Hold on

Day will break

It wont be long

You beg and plead for silence

"Dont tell anyone, please'

But im torn inside again and again...

Do i get up and leave?

I want you to keep fighting

But im giving you me

Way to much infact

Cant hold you with nothing

So please

Be strong

Day will break

It wont be long

Im cracking, breaking, dieing

Wishing, thinking, fighting

Screaming, pleading, cring

If you take you

You take me

Two birds with one stone...

But im not ready to leave...

So please

Hold on

Day will break

Wont be long

So please

Hold on

Help is comeing

Be strong

PIG Rant

It is rare occation that i rant

But

This is a special rage inside of me
And it will not be contained

No More


"You are so beautiful"
"I never want to do anything to hurt you"
"Your eyes say it all"
"I wanna be with you forever"
"I just wanna hold you"
"I miss the sound of your voice"
"I miss your smell"

"I love you"

PIG
PIG
FILTHY PIG

IT DRIVES ME CRAZY!!!!

All of thease..

Fithy
Worthless
Sex driven
Hormone filled
Meaningless
Negative
Sceming
Arrogant
Big headed
Carless
Conceted
Fussy
Dogmatic
Inconsiderate
Flaky
Narsasistic
Loud mouthed
Manipulative
Quick Temperd
Rude

Males

DO NOT GET ME WRONG

i dont think all men are like this

But, some are

And they are the WORST

A girl is fragile
A wine glass
A good china plate
A porclin doll
A stain glass window
A rose

Delecate

And when a PIG comes in contace...

well, lets just say

Good luck gluing your glass together
Nice job trying to tape that plate...
Sorry about your doll.. it was so beautiful before

The damage is perminate

So to all you guys who may read this rant

Guard your heart
Be gentle with us
Take extra care
Make sure you mean what you say
Be careful how you do things

Because if you really love us like you say you do
You will do all thease things mindfully

Do not be a PIG

Your Trust + My love

They say love and trust go hand in hand

I give you my trust

If you love me
You wont break it

Will you?

But if you do
Does it mean you love me any less?


Do i have to love you any less?


The feeling
Of hurt
Disappointment
Emptiness
Sadness

The fact you ripped me appart...
It makes all thoes feelings flourish
Like a rose
They blossum
Into beautiful fits
Bolts of rage
Cloudy emotion
That drop tears
My emptyness flows like a river
My sorow sprouts a fountain
And bitterness infects my skies

And you

Where does it get you
A higher social status?
A place?
In a vicious chain
A "friend"
A pal to gossip with

Does breaking our trust
Our love
Release bitterness you hold tward me?
Does a feeling of accomplishment wash over you

A high tide of self indulgeing rage
A sun ray of pride
A field of spitefull weeds
To fill a vace
Placed in the empty spot i left in your heart

After your fit

Do you feel better?

Was it all worth it

What you felt was meaningless

I try to tell myself

Your high tide
Was a cry for help

Your ray of pride
Was emotion waiting to be held

Your vace of weeds
Was clutter
Something to occupie you

That empty void
Is a space for me

And only me

So
We get down to it...

Do i love you any less...?

No

Do you love me any less...?

Well, thats for you to decide

Please Be Safe

Dont let this happen to you on the 4th... be safe safe safe... or i will cry!

Josh

Bell rings
Papers fly
He hugs them all
His last goodbye

Hops in his car
Normal day
Drives down the street
Sun in his way

Swerves on the road
Hits her car
Broken inside
Sirens heard far

Rushing to save him
Work fast, work tough
Limp now his limbs
Not fast enough

A face known dearly
Silenced so fast
Remember his voice clearly
But that time has passed...

How often do we forget
That we are not in control
Our minds so heavy set
Eyes on our goal

Althoe we may miss him
It wont bring him back
As tears falling glisten
We'll have to look back
On the time that we had with him
Keep our minds on track

God brings beauty from brokenness...

He never lacks

I didn't know Josh very well.. i met him once, you know small talk... seamed like a really nice guy... I'm sorry for all you who were close to him, i know it must be hard at the start of summer and all... I'll be praying for everyone involved... write, its a good way to get feelings out... just thought I'd share mine... thanks
--Carly Benedict

So Close

I can taste the sweet freedom
Its way to close
Yet out of reach
Its a strange sort of torture...
I loath it
As I stare at the window
Out side sun shut out by the cold
Bland
Blinds
I wish to see it...
Let it touch me
This class begins
A sigh wipes over the class room
So close
To close


Freedom

My Message to Red

*sobs into fingers and pokes eyes... then looks at ringers coverd in blood... the color reminda her of red... and then she cries more as she types this throught her tears* im pretty sure i dont know how much i can tell you this through words... i mean... i hink i love you is so over used... but i dont know what else to say... you are my gem... my pink panther diamond.. a piece in a museum, kept underlock and key in my heart
your better than the music of the ice cream man's truck
your like... idk... idk... you are you
my red
and no one else could ever make me feel so loved

You Make it So Hard...

One of the hardest things to do

Is walk into a conversation

Knowing you wont walk out

And if you do

Not all of you is there



When your bitter

And angry

With claws drawn

To tear me to shreds

I will not fight back

I will surrender

Go ahead

Stab them deep

So i don't have to suffer long...

But look

Look me in the eyes

And look at what I'm communicating



If you you ever loved me

If you ever respected me

If you ever cared for me



Like you said you did



You would pull back now

And let me live a little longer

Let me explain myself

My reason



And then maybe you'll see i did this out of



Love

Get Out of Me

I hear you

Up there

In the shadows

Of my head

You live in my mind

Hide under my bed

Your frightning

And hairy

Big, tall

Something so scary

Dont want you at all

In my mind

What i see

You coming at me

With your big ugly teeth

Snarling to see

If you can move me

Far from myself

My head on a shelf

For you to show all your friends

Get away

Running fast

Time will pass

And i wont see you

For a period of peace

But soon i feel you

On my knees

I scream

Please...

My mind is in tats

Ripples

And wrinkles

Undoing my acts

Not myself anymore

Your part of me

As my head hits the floor

I start to bleed

And as i lie there

Soar

Sick

And in need

Of a break from your terror

Im beging you

Leave

Heroin

This was created while i was persevering through driver ed...

An original from the mind i call my own...

Theres a deep dark pit

Inside your sole

It tears you up

Swallows you whole

You claw at your veins

Taking your toal

Needles are numbing

Eyes black as coal

Your legs are kicking

Screaming you pull

At tassels of carpet

As your eyes roll

And all of this started

because you were not told

Of what heroin does

Now your dieing here

Cold

Spend All Your Time

Spend all your time waiting for...

Life to slow down

Too feel like you belong

A break in time

A loving hand

A gentle hug

End to tears

A second chance

A caring heart

An inviting eye

A patient composure

To have a stop

A pressure relief

A quick escape

So you can continue

A possibility

To keep going

A help

Someone

To take you in

Deeper than the surface

To love you

To hold you

To cherish you

To miss you

To assure you

To remind you

To steady you

To trust

A place

To rest

To stop

To end fear

End tears

A pit

To breath

And sleep

For as long as you need

Without interruption

A moment

Of pure joy

A smile

Genuine and true

Of certainty

Of security

For just you

To breath

Fresh and clean

With no worry in the world

Keep waiting...

Keep hoping...

To keep going...

To stand on your own...

To have peace...

To be loved...

To be held...

To show the world...

That it cant beat you down...

Because there is always a way to stand under its waite...

It cant smash you...

Mutilate you...

Drown you...

Crush you...

Keep waiting...

Keep going...

I know you can..

My Hippie

"Say im your hippie, I'll i'm your hippie, well giggle and cuddle and always be happy. We'll never go crazy, We'll never feel crappy. We'll never feel crappy, we'll always be happy..."

My life
With a hippie
Is never
Ever
Dull
We hug trees
Eat the grass
Go out for a stroll
Bare foot
And sun burnt
On hills we roll
We come home
Jump in bed
Day has taken its toll

Night falls on our dweling
Feet black as coal
From the kritters we steped on
(including all moles)

I cant express the love i feel for you, but i know that i love you and you love me too... so say im your hippie, cuz i'll tell you your mine
we'll giggle and cuddle
till the the end of all time
we might feel crapy
but in our prime
i know i'll have you

your one of a kind ;)

thanks for being made of awesome

Deep

Soft

Voice

Sound

Touch

Feel

Refection

Ground

Damp

Deep

Dark

Peer

Lost

Confusion

Clouds

Tear

Fear

You

Coming

Near

Broken

Falling

Down

Smear

Save

Us

Can

You

Hear?

Loud

Cries

Thunder

Spies

Mass

Destruction

In

Your

Eyes

Looking

Part

Of

Me

Dies

Will the sun ever rise?

Yum

YumYum

YumYumYum

TEE

YUMNOM

NOMNOMNOMNOM

YUM

nom...

nom...

nomnom...nom.nom

*BELCH*

My Broken Little Angel

Once i saw a little guy

He had bags beneath his eyes

And the little girl with him

Look like she was gunna cry

And it made me wonder what was wrong

So i sat there and finish up my lunch

And i sat there and i wached

There was a man with a beard

And a stern look on his face

His words were harsh

But unheard

I could feel the darkness seeping around them

His tone was damp

As he sat at that table

I wached him

He was livid

And his kids were afrid of him

He turned to the little girl

He got so close to her face

Grabbed her sholders

And growled something inaudiboe at her

That was strike one

He told motiond her tward the bathroom

Such a small gem

Walking herself away

And then he turned to the little boy

He moved next time him

Grabbed his face

He was growled at too

But with more force

Anger running deep through the air

And that beast of a man moved back to the other side

I almost wished that little girl would have been abducted

So at least she could ascape from this

But she returned with obedience

A fear in her eyes

She clambored into the seat beside the man

He carelessly tosed a napkin into her food and laughed...

She sunk into her place

Then he snapped his eyes to that little angel of a boy

Grumbles something

And i saw the tears well up

Strike two

That little boy held it together

And he looked around the room

He looked at me

At my eyes

And i knew what that man was doing

That little angel looked into me

And all i could see was

"help me

please

im scared

and im alone

and i need a hand

please

take me away from this place

from my fears

so i can cry

i want to be a kid

not a slave

i dont want to be afraid anymore..."

He looked away

And the worst thing is

I couldnt do a thing to help that little sweetie

I walked out of the resturant

Holding my tears

Because i knew

That little boy had to go home

And he had to face what ever kind of deamon that man was...

I can only wish to be that brave...

Mirrors Lie

When you look in the mirror
Do you trust what you see?
Do you quetion it by asking
"Is this really me?"
Do you treat it as a friend
As a trustworthy fellow?
Do you let it tell lies
Hear its laughs bellow
What you see in the mirror
Is what it wants you to see
Cuz mirrors are alive
As are you and me

Im trying to inspire myself... im really wanting to write a short story about mirrors.. and how they lie lol

Fear of You

The worst feeling in the world:



The feeling of fear that consumes you when you look in the miror... the voice inside your head that tells you what you will do...despite what you may want... the hollow insecure place that occupies your mind... the pit where things loom...beasts... they plot your undoing... and your just now sencing what they... that they are... despite what your mother told you... monsters do exist... she cant save you from them... they are rite there in your mind... waiting... wanting... wishing...
and no matter how loud you scream... no one will ever hear.. no one will ever come


and you can not escape whats inside of you.

12/26

This song is about the tsunami that hit Thailand a couple years ago... its a reminder about how thankful we all should be for what we have.. the lyrics to the song are a bit desturbing when you first begin to read them... but its a good song.


one of her babies is rotting in the sun
and the other one was found drowned in the ocean
her mom and dad are in their van crushed and bloated
and her husband was thrown from his fishing boat
so please give me a break from all your complaining
about who was mean to you and how your stepdad is a pain-
i care, i swear, but i just can't take it, not today
all i can think about are tsunamis and earthquakes
everything she's ever known is gone, gone, gone
everyone she's ever loved is gone, gone, gone
the only reason she's alive is
she grabbed a palm frond and held on
and held on
you can call me crazy but it seems to me we could
have sent more than we spend in one day killing iraqis
to help the hundreds of thousands
who are injured and diseased
and hungry and homeless and without families
i'm appalled by our government's initial reactionand the fact that they asked for a verbal retractionfrom the folks who called them stingy
they're just covering their assets
well, they thank their greedy god for wiping out the lower class
everything she's ever known is gone, gone, gone
everyone she's ever loved is gone, gone, gone
the only reason she's alive is
she grabbed a palm frond and held on
and held on
one of her babies is rotting in the sun
and the other one was found drowned in the ocean
her mom and dad are in their van crushed and bloated
and her husband was thrown from his fishing boat
we'd have 12/26 tattooed across our foreheads
if something this atrocious happened on our coast instead
well, a tragedy's a tragedy no matter where it happens
close your eyes really tight and try to imagine
that everything you've ever known is gone
and everyone you've ever loved is gone
and the only reason you're alive is you were lucky
and you were strong enough to hold on
while you watched your family die
while you watched your family die
while you watched your family die
while you watched your family die
everything she's ever known is gone, gone, gone
everyone she's ever loved is gone, gone, gone
the only reason she's alive is
she grabbed a palm frond and held on
and held on



Now really thinks about it...really close your eyes... how would it feel to louse EVRYONE.... to louse EVRYTHING ... and be the only one left???

kinda sucks a little more than your annoying little brother... or your stuck up loder siste... i think so...

This one is for Becca

Eleventeen - Kimya Dawson

Silver pink ponies flying over meyou may feel strange, well, you are an angel

stuck in tight pants stuck at a high school dance

stuck doing people things not knowing you have wings

you are my serenade you are my lemonade

you are my soul throw it all out the window

you are my training wheel you are my chamomile

you are my friend come again some other day

you are my pantomime and you are my moonshine

you are my sunshine you are my shooting star

you are my elbow you are my buttercup

*spoonful of puppycat bellyful of kittypup*

pretty pretty baby tin toy maybe

X marks the spot and it's not what they expected

sing that song again the one that makes me cry when

she walks into the room and you don't know what to do

every step of every day i love you

every single one of you

whenever you get in your own way ilove you, you love me too

no pain anymore nothing to feel sorry for

heaven is right here heaven is every

where

look at the trees dancing in the breeze

feel the raindrops on your knees

silver pink ponies flying over me

flying over me they're flying over you too

silver pink ponies flying over me

flying over me their flying over you too

silver pink ponies flying over me

you may feel strange, well, you are an angel

stuck in tight pants stuck at a high school dance

stuck doing people things not knowing you have wings

you are an angel

you are an angel

you are an angel

you are an angel

My Broken Friend

When i look into your eyes i see...

I see the boy in you come out
He is afraid to face reality
Because he truly belives it out to get him

I see some of the best times you had with her
Tun to the most painful memories you contain

I see your tears
They fall evry night as you try to sleep
And yet more come evry morning

I see your heart
Shaterd
Laying cold on the floor

I see your eyes
Darting away from the pictures you took together
Just to avouid tears

I see your soal
Begging desperately
To have just one last chance with the only person responsible for your loneliness

I see my friend
He's drowning some where inside of all that
He doesnt want to keep going
He doesnt think he can move along

And its one if the most helpless feelings in the world
Because i love you
I may now show it all the time
I may not say it often..
But its true..

You know what else i see?

I see glipses
Of how he used to be
His silly jokes
His boyish antics
the boy i miss
The boy i want so despratly to come back

I see healing
Its happening
Slowly
But it is
And i cant wait till you are compleate again

Caving In - Kimya Dawson

Love this song! Thougt maybe you would too...


Have you ever been swindled by a swindler who lies'cause he wants to see you smile, have a good time, be inspired
And he doesn't want for you to cry or know he cries inside
So he hides behind his great triumphant rock and roll disguise
We want things to be real but you really can't deny
We feel excited and on fire is it wrong to lie and say he's fine
When the reason he's not fine is the pressure of the power changing lives
And just for an hour all these people will be better people
Take this job and shove it, adios
I'm a ghost
I am leaving for the coast and I'll never work for anyone again
I am not your savior or your heavenly host
I'm just a piece of zwieback toast
Getting soggy in a baby's achin' mouth
I'm going south like the geese
I just goosed you and so maybe I seem loose to you
But I don't even want to screw
And I did once
But I don't now
Now that I see how you do things
The way you play and sing's amazing
But the way you play the game is crazyYou don't have to say you're sorry you don't owe me anything
Don't owe me anything
Sometimes it seems like I've got all the answers
But the answers aren't the same when the questions keep on changing
Like how will I react when I see my mother crying
Every single day 'cause she is afraid of dying?
And how will I contain my anger
When Delila plays Unchained Melody instead of Lost In Your Eyes?
And where will I go where I can feel safe
When my family sells it's place and we all split up and move away?
I'm trying to be brave 'cause when I'm brave
Other people feel brave
But I feel like my heart is caving in
I'm trying to be brave 'cause when I'm brave
Other people feel brave
But I feel like my heart is caving in
I'm trying to be brave 'cause when I'm brave
Other people feel brave
But I feel like my heart is caving in

A Love Letter

She is in love...

Not with a single person
Not with a man
Nor a woman
She is in love with a group
A mass of people
A heart built of many complex peices

She is in love with her friends

One large heart waiting with open arms
To congradulate her when she has accomplished things
To hold her when she cries
To listen to her problems
And is still there when she falls short


And its that group that has made life here possable
Its her smile for the day
Her emotion
Her motivation
Its her good morning
Her stability
Her sunshine

Without them life would be destitute
A waste land
Pins and needles in her feet
Burning tears that scorch chapped lips
Something she fears most
Being alone
Left in the dark
Placed with a being who knows her evry fear
What makes her jump
What keeps her up at night
The key to her undoing
So she could no longer be
She trusts that the hands of that masswill be there
To catch her
To keep her safe

She wants them to know
How much she loves them
How much they mean to her
How important they are
How necessary they are
What hell her life would be with out them
And even if she doesnt show it or say it all the time
It stands without boundries
Her love for them is uncomperable
And she doesnt ever want them to forget

I love you

Pain

She clap clap claps, and then

A sigh

The tears fall down out of her eyes

With a smile she says

"I applaud you my dear"

And to the cold ground falls one lonley tear

She walks a little closer

Covers up her fear

Grips her fists up tighter

And says

" Now, you listen here!"

The tears begin to come

Not the lonley ones

Thease ones emerge

From deep inside

A flood of anger comes

No longer on her face

The curse of human race

Her mangle twisted place

Torn up

She has brought discrace...

Quotes with Poe and Others You May Know

I will start with the one i can relate to the most

"Years of love have been forgot, In the hatred of a minute." -Edger Allan Poe

The sad thing is... it happens... Down the page you will find more... all describe how i feel... all are unclamed or i couldnt find the author...


Moving on is simple, what you leave behind that makes it difficult.

We always thought we'd look back on our tears and laugh, but we never thought we'd look back on our laughter and cry

Friendship must never be buried under the weight of misunderstanding.~ Sri Chinmoy

There is nothing more dreadful than the habit of doubt. Doubt separates people. It is a poison that disintegrates friendships and breaks up pleasant relations. It is a thorn that irritates and hurts; it is a sword that kills. ~ Buddha

It is strange how often a heart must be broken before the years can make it wise

The worst solitude is to be destitute of sincere friendship. ~ Sir Francis Bacon

We all lose friends.. we lose them in death, to distance and over time. But even though they may be lost, hope is not. The key is to keep them in your heart, and when the time is right, you can pick up the friendship right where you left off. Even the lost find their way home when you leave the light on." ~ Amy Marie Walz


I let myself think that maybe something would be different, that something would change between us, but nothing happened and we still aren't friends.

You Stab My Back.Broke My Bones.Took My Air.Killed Me Again and Again.But Yet I'm Still Here Standing Right Next To You...

Friendship is like a glass ornament, once it is broken it can rarely be put back together exactly the same way.

“It's funny, isn't it? How your best friend can just blow up like that?” - Monty Python

Two of my Favorate Sayings about Love

"Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are.
Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident..." ----Captain Corelli's Mandolin.

Don't walk in front of me, I may not follow; Don't walk behind me, I may not lead; Walk beside me, and just be my friend. --- Albert Camious

Let Go

I am writing this because this is how i feel.... this is not directed tward anyone... more of a situation, and i write it to realese... i dont want a fuss over this.... i just want to express myself... this is simply how i feel

Why does it have to be like this?

Constant hurt

Continuous abandonment

Always turning up unecisary thoughts

Overdue complaints

I'v held on for so long

You showd me what you thought of me

How easy it was to let me go

I was not important to you

I find you made no effort to hold onto what we had

To hold onto me

And 8 years of friendship has been thrown away

It was lost so easy

And that scares me

What was 8 years for?

What was it worth to you?

Why didnt you just tell me from the start?

You didnt need me

You love me?

Why didnt you show me?

You can tell me you care

You can tell me your sorry

You can tell me you wish it didnt have to be this way....

But please

If you love me

Dont lie to me

Step down
To pavement
Its cold
Its harsh
Look up to moonlight
Friendly
Yet dark
Walk in the fridged
Blowing wind
Wishing for someone
A wanting
A friend

Fear will comsume me
And lost i will go
The dark
It will swollow me
And no one will know
The screams will come from me
And no one will hear
Why do i fear you...
In the dark
You are near...

I Love You

The Musical

There is a spring musical going on at Cedarcrest High School!

"Anything Goes" is a musical production that takes place on a ship sailing to England. The story is as follows:

The S.S. American, sailing from New York to England, carries an unusual group of passengers. Included amongst them are a gangster (Moonface Martin), a wealthy debutante and her mother (Hope and Evangeline Harcourt), a nightclub singer (Reno Sweeny), and a wealthy New York businessman and his stowaway assistant (Elisha Witney and Billy Crocker). It turns out that Hope is Billy's long-lost love. Unfortunately, she is now engaged to a wealthy Englishman, Lord Evelyn Oakleigh. After a series of comedic happenings, Billy manages to win back Hope. Meanwhile, Billy's friend, Reno, manages to seduce and win Lord Evelyn. All this happens while Moonface Martin attempts to escape the law and Hope's mother strives to maintain her social status.

This musical taking place at Cedarcrest will be directed by Miss. Rountree, the drama teacher. Also adding to this preformance will be a live band, made up of the best of the best musitions, directed by the misic teacher, Mr.Lewis.

SAVE THE DATE! April 23, 24, 25! Be there! Or the cast of this wonderful production will surly perish... ;(

(Play description pulled from www.stageagent.com)

A Letter To All Friends

I ask myself today...
"Why do i have friends?"

They dont care...
They dont help...
They dont listen

All the care about...
Well, i actuly dont know...

Dear Friends,
Im not trying to be high and mighty...
Im not trying to put myself on a pedistal...
Im not " the best of friends"
But i try my hardest
Evryday
I lag sometimes...
But its because im hurting...
None of you seem to understand
To care...
I love you
I listen to you
Im here when you need me
I try my best to meet your needs
But i trip sometimes...
Im sorry
But im hurting
You are lovely, and wonderful
But
You break promises
You lie
You tear me down
Do i deserve it?
Im starting to think so...

My question is...
When will someone care about me?
When is it my turn to be loved?
Do i deserve to be listend to?
And if i do... why?
Its seems evrything is warpimg
And twisting
Im alone in the dark...
I cry for each and evryone of you...
And you dont hear me...
I'v been left behind...
In the dark
And im afraid...
No one is looking back for me...
Friend, in the past i have been angry
Bitter
Now, all i am is hurt
Im lonley
And i wish you caould see that...
I came to you with a smile... hoping you'll see through it...
But you never do...
I thought you cared...
I thought you would see...
But its odvious now that i am not important...
This note is not intended to get attention...
Not to make you feel guilty
Or sorry for me...
It is to tell you how i feel...
Im hurt...
Im lost
Im broken
Im alone...

The Try Out

She has been waiting
Trying to be confident in herself...
But there are so many others
With experience
And so many others who are a lot better than she is

So many people tell her she can do it
They know she can
But she doesnt know if she can
What if they dont want to hurt her feelings?
What if she makes a fool of herself?
She wants to contribute
She loves acting
But singing...

Thats another story
When she opens her mouth...
She hears "nails on a chalk board"
Its so hard to decide...
So much expectation...
She feels presured to do well...
She wants to do well...

So
On wedsday..
She will walk into that room
And she will screech...
And she'll see how they like it...


Pray for that poor girl lol

Ode to Autumn

I walked through the halls
Felling kinda hopeless
Im kinda wierd and tall
But you loved me regardless
I dont write poems well
But i dont think you'll notice
I just wanna tell you
Im so glad

And im sure your thinking... so... why are you so glad?

And im gunna tell you now...

Im so glad for that poke
Kinda awkward at first
But man
You were like
"Hey! Im Autumn!"
And i was like
*wow! i think i made a friend!*
And there was kinda that awkward pause cuz i was thinking and stuff
And then i said
"HEY!... im ... Carly..."
and i think you thought i was kinda wierd.. but thats ok cuz i am...

So ya...
anyway....
Thats my intro...
And now im gunna look for a really good poem
Cuz i cant write a good one for ya!


My New Best Friend
Author: Unknown

Today I met a great new friend
Who knew me right away
It was funny how she understood
All I had to say
She listened to my problems
She listened to my dreams
We talked about love and life
She’d been there, too, it seems
I never once felt judged by her
She knew just how I felt
She seemed to just accept me
And all the problems I’d been dealt
She didn’t interrupt me
Or need to have her say
She just listened very patiently
And didn’t go away
I wanted her to understand
How much this meant to me
But as I went to hug her
Something startled me
I put my arms in front of me
And went to pull her nearer
And realized that my new best friend
Was nothing but a mirror

Evrything was perfect... Untill i got to the bottum... and stuff highlited in yellow... ya... ignor that! But the rest is how i really feel...

I LOVE YOU AUTUMN!

My Rant

I FEEL AN AMAZING AMMOUNT OF ANGER!
I WANT TO SCREAM!
ALL THE STUPID LITTLE STUFF!
IT BUILDS
AND BUILDS

I am like a ticking time bomb
Fragile
Redy to explode
All the people who have walked on me
All the stupid stuff they have said
To make me feel the way I do
They are gunna get it...
They will be the ones to blame when i explode
It will be them who pushed me over the edge...
They will feel bad...

Im tired of being quiet
Of being walked on...
Taking the abuse
The comments
Letting them slip by...

I am so sick and tired of all thease stupid people

Is it really that hard to keep all your rude crap to yourself?
No...

So, a warning to you all
At this moment in time...
Do not push me
Because for once
I will not be nice

The Lost

I’m posting this for all the girls, guys, people out there who feel like this. They need to know they are not alone. It is also to remind you all what can happen. When someone is alone in the world they don’t last very long… be a friend to everyone. I know its not as simple as I say it is… but really, try your best.

She walks through the hallways
Broken and torn
She looks at her face
Tired and worn
She tries to find comfort
In all the small things
But how long can she last?
Just her simple nothing

Over and over theses people are blind
A fake smile inside and no body minds
Tears fall down
But no body sees
They plug their ears as she screams
“They won’t hear me!”

And who ever would?

Now whos gunna care
Whos gunna find
Her broken pieces
Her story of life
What will it matter?
If she did leave
She’s invisible now
As she screams “Please save me!”

But no one wants to…

Her body is broken
Her flesh had been torn
No one around
No one to mourn
Alone in the dark
The pain did end
To bad her spirit had no time to mend

Because

Over and over these people were blind
A fake smile inside
And no body minds
The tears rolled down
But no body saw
They plugged their ears as she screamed
“They won’t hear me!”

And no one ever did…

Angel

This is my fave song at the moment
Sarah McLaughlin


Spend all your time waiting for that second chance For the break that will make it ok
There's always some reason to feel not good enough
And it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction, oh beautiful release
Memories seep from my veins
They may be empty and weightless, and maybe I'll find some peace tonight
In the arms of an Angel, fly away from here From this dark, cold hotel room, and the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of an Angel; may you find some comfort here

So tired of the straight line, and everywhere you turn
There's vultures and thieves at your back
The storm keeps on twisting, you keep on building the lies
That you make up for all that you lack
It don't make no difference, escaping one last time
It's easier to believe In this sweet madness, oh this glorious sadness
That brings me to my knees
In the arms of an Angel, far away from here
From this dark, cold hotel room, and the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage of your silent reverie
In the arms of an Angel; may you find some comfort here

The Appologie

When she looked up... it was all over
The heart ache
The secret shatering
The silent tears
And i saw it coming
I felt that sorry hit me like a ton of bricks in the stomach
It was the best feeling and the worst in the world
And when thoes big brown eyes filled with tears

Well

Thats when things changed
And i could never look at thoes eyes the same
They never showed so much emotion
So much hurt
Remorse
For just one thing
And that told me so much

It said

I am so sorry
I love you
I miss your closeness
And i want that back
I never meant to hurt you
The way i did
And it wont happen again
Because in working on myself
Im not letting you go
Because i vaue you
You are worth something
And dont let me destroy that feeling
Trust will have to be rebuilt
And i know that
But we can do it
Together
I want this
This relationship will heel
Because i know we can fix it
I know we can

And she said it all...
In that one tear...

Its amazing
What tears can do

We Will Never Be The Same

I want to believe it was a misstake

But how can i?

I want to believe you love me

And yet i cant

You tell me it was an accident

But how can it be...

Your excuse...

"I was out of the loop"

Out of the loop?

But how... how... when evryone knew... when evryone saw how clear it was... the choice you made could be no "accident" as you say

The choice you made...

Was no accident

You said you misunderstood me...

You said it was a comunication problem

How could that have been?

You were so general

Talk is not the same as disscus

Unviel

Bring out into the open

Talk is casual

I know you are human...

I know you are not perfect

I know you "love" me

But do you love me?

That i may never know

You broght my world down

And i was smotherd by it...

All you wanted was to "save" me from my brokeness

And what you did

Well, you killed me

Trust

"Love many, Trust few, Do wrong to none..."

A quote to live by

Do not trust all you know

Question evrything

Because the peoson you least expect may turn on you at any given moment

For any reason

May it be good

Or bad

Betrayl beats down an alredy wounded heart

It does its work and lingers to see its effects

Its something from hell

And you will never completly understand it until it knocks on your door

Friends are something good to have...

But be careful who you involve yourself with

Be causious

Look for discises

Masks

The crafty cretures

They dont all love you as they say

Their words are empty

And they will break you in the end...

Take heed

And wach you back

Do not rely on others to much

But make sure you have your own back

Just in case

Its not a good feeling

To be double crossed

Be your own friend...

Love evryone

Buit do not attach yourself

Trust few

Doubly check what you have

Because you may find a soure apple in the bunch

Do wrong to none

Dont take your hurt out on others

Dont become a shut in

And cause heart ach to others

Try to rebuild your broken pieces...

And become whole again

School

I am in school
Now
At this moment
With Brooke at my side
*looks over and grins... makes Brooke feel awkward*
And content for the time being
Also thankful that i escaped Rieke...
So bored
OMG!
*screams... libary woman looks sternly... pierces soal*
Better go...
*runs for the door*

A MESSAGE TO YOU!

BROOKE SAYS TO WRITE ABOUT YOUR FEEEEELINGS!


LISTEN TO HER

A MESSAGE FROM BROOKE PADRON

A True Brother

It stared with her cries
And ended with thease words...
That helped her heal


He says:
I want you to hear something

She says:
im listening

He says:
You know how I have the love of my life

She says:
yes

He says:
I claimed her a long time ago
and ever since
she has always been MY rochelle
correct?

She says:
yes

He says:
well in a different way
You are MY carly

Carly says:
:...( you know... i don think anyone has ever cared for me like you do... you me like a sister... like family... and i know that..

I dont know if someone has ever said something like this to you...
But it lets you know you are loved
I know im not alone
I am Loved