Ode to Autumn

I walked through the halls
Felling kinda hopeless
Im kinda wierd and tall
But you loved me regardless
I dont write poems well
But i dont think you'll notice
I just wanna tell you
Im so glad

And im sure your thinking... so... why are you so glad?

And im gunna tell you now...

Im so glad for that poke
Kinda awkward at first
But man
You were like
"Hey! Im Autumn!"
And i was like
*wow! i think i made a friend!*
And there was kinda that awkward pause cuz i was thinking and stuff
And then i said
"HEY!... im ... Carly..."
and i think you thought i was kinda wierd.. but thats ok cuz i am...

So ya...
anyway....
Thats my intro...
And now im gunna look for a really good poem
Cuz i cant write a good one for ya!


My New Best Friend
Author: Unknown

Today I met a great new friend
Who knew me right away
It was funny how she understood
All I had to say
She listened to my problems
She listened to my dreams
We talked about love and life
She’d been there, too, it seems
I never once felt judged by her
She knew just how I felt
She seemed to just accept me
And all the problems I’d been dealt
She didn’t interrupt me
Or need to have her say
She just listened very patiently
And didn’t go away
I wanted her to understand
How much this meant to me
But as I went to hug her
Something startled me
I put my arms in front of me
And went to pull her nearer
And realized that my new best friend
Was nothing but a mirror

Evrything was perfect... Untill i got to the bottum... and stuff highlited in yellow... ya... ignor that! But the rest is how i really feel...

I LOVE YOU AUTUMN!

My Rant

I FEEL AN AMAZING AMMOUNT OF ANGER!
I WANT TO SCREAM!
ALL THE STUPID LITTLE STUFF!
IT BUILDS
AND BUILDS

I am like a ticking time bomb
Fragile
Redy to explode
All the people who have walked on me
All the stupid stuff they have said
To make me feel the way I do
They are gunna get it...
They will be the ones to blame when i explode
It will be them who pushed me over the edge...
They will feel bad...

Im tired of being quiet
Of being walked on...
Taking the abuse
The comments
Letting them slip by...

I am so sick and tired of all thease stupid people

Is it really that hard to keep all your rude crap to yourself?
No...

So, a warning to you all
At this moment in time...
Do not push me
Because for once
I will not be nice

The Lost

I’m posting this for all the girls, guys, people out there who feel like this. They need to know they are not alone. It is also to remind you all what can happen. When someone is alone in the world they don’t last very long… be a friend to everyone. I know its not as simple as I say it is… but really, try your best.

She walks through the hallways
Broken and torn
She looks at her face
Tired and worn
She tries to find comfort
In all the small things
But how long can she last?
Just her simple nothing

Over and over theses people are blind
A fake smile inside and no body minds
Tears fall down
But no body sees
They plug their ears as she screams
“They won’t hear me!”

And who ever would?

Now whos gunna care
Whos gunna find
Her broken pieces
Her story of life
What will it matter?
If she did leave
She’s invisible now
As she screams “Please save me!”

But no one wants to…

Her body is broken
Her flesh had been torn
No one around
No one to mourn
Alone in the dark
The pain did end
To bad her spirit had no time to mend

Because

Over and over these people were blind
A fake smile inside
And no body minds
The tears rolled down
But no body saw
They plugged their ears as she screamed
“They won’t hear me!”

And no one ever did…

Angel

This is my fave song at the moment
Sarah McLaughlin


Spend all your time waiting for that second chance For the break that will make it ok
There's always some reason to feel not good enough
And it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction, oh beautiful release
Memories seep from my veins
They may be empty and weightless, and maybe I'll find some peace tonight
In the arms of an Angel, fly away from here From this dark, cold hotel room, and the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of an Angel; may you find some comfort here

So tired of the straight line, and everywhere you turn
There's vultures and thieves at your back
The storm keeps on twisting, you keep on building the lies
That you make up for all that you lack
It don't make no difference, escaping one last time
It's easier to believe In this sweet madness, oh this glorious sadness
That brings me to my knees
In the arms of an Angel, far away from here
From this dark, cold hotel room, and the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage of your silent reverie
In the arms of an Angel; may you find some comfort here

The Appologie

When she looked up... it was all over
The heart ache
The secret shatering
The silent tears
And i saw it coming
I felt that sorry hit me like a ton of bricks in the stomach
It was the best feeling and the worst in the world
And when thoes big brown eyes filled with tears

Well

Thats when things changed
And i could never look at thoes eyes the same
They never showed so much emotion
So much hurt
Remorse
For just one thing
And that told me so much

It said

I am so sorry
I love you
I miss your closeness
And i want that back
I never meant to hurt you
The way i did
And it wont happen again
Because in working on myself
Im not letting you go
Because i vaue you
You are worth something
And dont let me destroy that feeling
Trust will have to be rebuilt
And i know that
But we can do it
Together
I want this
This relationship will heel
Because i know we can fix it
I know we can

And she said it all...
In that one tear...

Its amazing
What tears can do

We Will Never Be The Same

I want to believe it was a misstake

But how can i?

I want to believe you love me

And yet i cant

You tell me it was an accident

But how can it be...

Your excuse...

"I was out of the loop"

Out of the loop?

But how... how... when evryone knew... when evryone saw how clear it was... the choice you made could be no "accident" as you say

The choice you made...

Was no accident

You said you misunderstood me...

You said it was a comunication problem

How could that have been?

You were so general

Talk is not the same as disscus

Unviel

Bring out into the open

Talk is casual

I know you are human...

I know you are not perfect

I know you "love" me

But do you love me?

That i may never know

You broght my world down

And i was smotherd by it...

All you wanted was to "save" me from my brokeness

And what you did

Well, you killed me

Trust

"Love many, Trust few, Do wrong to none..."

A quote to live by

Do not trust all you know

Question evrything

Because the peoson you least expect may turn on you at any given moment

For any reason

May it be good

Or bad

Betrayl beats down an alredy wounded heart

It does its work and lingers to see its effects

Its something from hell

And you will never completly understand it until it knocks on your door

Friends are something good to have...

But be careful who you involve yourself with

Be causious

Look for discises

Masks

The crafty cretures

They dont all love you as they say

Their words are empty

And they will break you in the end...

Take heed

And wach you back

Do not rely on others to much

But make sure you have your own back

Just in case

Its not a good feeling

To be double crossed

Be your own friend...

Love evryone

Buit do not attach yourself

Trust few

Doubly check what you have

Because you may find a soure apple in the bunch

Do wrong to none

Dont take your hurt out on others

Dont become a shut in

And cause heart ach to others

Try to rebuild your broken pieces...

And become whole again

School

I am in school
Now
At this moment
With Brooke at my side
*looks over and grins... makes Brooke feel awkward*
And content for the time being
Also thankful that i escaped Rieke...
So bored
OMG!
*screams... libary woman looks sternly... pierces soal*
Better go...
*runs for the door*

A MESSAGE TO YOU!

BROOKE SAYS TO WRITE ABOUT YOUR FEEEEELINGS!


LISTEN TO HER

A MESSAGE FROM BROOKE PADRON

A True Brother

It stared with her cries
And ended with thease words...
That helped her heal


He says:
I want you to hear something

She says:
im listening

He says:
You know how I have the love of my life

She says:
yes

He says:
I claimed her a long time ago
and ever since
she has always been MY rochelle
correct?

She says:
yes

He says:
well in a different way
You are MY carly

Carly says:
:...( you know... i don think anyone has ever cared for me like you do... you me like a sister... like family... and i know that..

I dont know if someone has ever said something like this to you...
But it lets you know you are loved
I know im not alone
I am Loved