Josh

Bell rings
Papers fly
He hugs them all
His last goodbye

Hops in his car
Normal day
Drives down the street
Sun in his way

Swerves on the road
Hits her car
Broken inside
Sirens heard far

Rushing to save him
Work fast, work tough
Limp now his limbs
Not fast enough

A face known dearly
Silenced so fast
Remember his voice clearly
But that time has passed...

How often do we forget
That we are not in control
Our minds so heavy set
Eyes on our goal

Althoe we may miss him
It wont bring him back
As tears falling glisten
We'll have to look back
On the time that we had with him
Keep our minds on track

God brings beauty from brokenness...

He never lacks

I didn't know Josh very well.. i met him once, you know small talk... seamed like a really nice guy... I'm sorry for all you who were close to him, i know it must be hard at the start of summer and all... I'll be praying for everyone involved... write, its a good way to get feelings out... just thought I'd share mine... thanks
--Carly Benedict

So Close

I can taste the sweet freedom
Its way to close
Yet out of reach
Its a strange sort of torture...
I loath it
As I stare at the window
Out side sun shut out by the cold
Bland
Blinds
I wish to see it...
Let it touch me
This class begins
A sigh wipes over the class room
So close
To close


Freedom

My Message to Red

*sobs into fingers and pokes eyes... then looks at ringers coverd in blood... the color reminda her of red... and then she cries more as she types this throught her tears* im pretty sure i dont know how much i can tell you this through words... i mean... i hink i love you is so over used... but i dont know what else to say... you are my gem... my pink panther diamond.. a piece in a museum, kept underlock and key in my heart
your better than the music of the ice cream man's truck
your like... idk... idk... you are you
my red
and no one else could ever make me feel so loved

You Make it So Hard...

One of the hardest things to do

Is walk into a conversation

Knowing you wont walk out

And if you do

Not all of you is there



When your bitter

And angry

With claws drawn

To tear me to shreds

I will not fight back

I will surrender

Go ahead

Stab them deep

So i don't have to suffer long...

But look

Look me in the eyes

And look at what I'm communicating



If you you ever loved me

If you ever respected me

If you ever cared for me



Like you said you did



You would pull back now

And let me live a little longer

Let me explain myself

My reason



And then maybe you'll see i did this out of



Love

Get Out of Me

I hear you

Up there

In the shadows

Of my head

You live in my mind

Hide under my bed

Your frightning

And hairy

Big, tall

Something so scary

Dont want you at all

In my mind

What i see

You coming at me

With your big ugly teeth

Snarling to see

If you can move me

Far from myself

My head on a shelf

For you to show all your friends

Get away

Running fast

Time will pass

And i wont see you

For a period of peace

But soon i feel you

On my knees

I scream

Please...

My mind is in tats

Ripples

And wrinkles

Undoing my acts

Not myself anymore

Your part of me

As my head hits the floor

I start to bleed

And as i lie there

Soar

Sick

And in need

Of a break from your terror

Im beging you

Leave

Heroin

This was created while i was persevering through driver ed...

An original from the mind i call my own...

Theres a deep dark pit

Inside your sole

It tears you up

Swallows you whole

You claw at your veins

Taking your toal

Needles are numbing

Eyes black as coal

Your legs are kicking

Screaming you pull

At tassels of carpet

As your eyes roll

And all of this started

because you were not told

Of what heroin does

Now your dieing here

Cold

Spend All Your Time

Spend all your time waiting for...

Life to slow down

Too feel like you belong

A break in time

A loving hand

A gentle hug

End to tears

A second chance

A caring heart

An inviting eye

A patient composure

To have a stop

A pressure relief

A quick escape

So you can continue

A possibility

To keep going

A help

Someone

To take you in

Deeper than the surface

To love you

To hold you

To cherish you

To miss you

To assure you

To remind you

To steady you

To trust

A place

To rest

To stop

To end fear

End tears

A pit

To breath

And sleep

For as long as you need

Without interruption

A moment

Of pure joy

A smile

Genuine and true

Of certainty

Of security

For just you

To breath

Fresh and clean

With no worry in the world

Keep waiting...

Keep hoping...

To keep going...

To stand on your own...

To have peace...

To be loved...

To be held...

To show the world...

That it cant beat you down...

Because there is always a way to stand under its waite...

It cant smash you...

Mutilate you...

Drown you...

Crush you...

Keep waiting...

Keep going...

I know you can..

My Hippie

"Say im your hippie, I'll i'm your hippie, well giggle and cuddle and always be happy. We'll never go crazy, We'll never feel crappy. We'll never feel crappy, we'll always be happy..."

My life
With a hippie
Is never
Ever
Dull
We hug trees
Eat the grass
Go out for a stroll
Bare foot
And sun burnt
On hills we roll
We come home
Jump in bed
Day has taken its toll

Night falls on our dweling
Feet black as coal
From the kritters we steped on
(including all moles)

I cant express the love i feel for you, but i know that i love you and you love me too... so say im your hippie, cuz i'll tell you your mine
we'll giggle and cuddle
till the the end of all time
we might feel crapy
but in our prime
i know i'll have you

your one of a kind ;)

thanks for being made of awesome