The Begging

Evry time

That cold

Sharp

Blade

Makes contact with your skin

I dig a hole deep down inside

And die a bit within

No matter what i say to you

Tell you i am your friend

You disregard my warning

It happens again and again

So please

Hold on

Day will break

It wont be long

You beg and plead for silence

"Dont tell anyone, please'

But im torn inside again and again...

Do i get up and leave?

I want you to keep fighting

But im giving you me

Way to much infact

Cant hold you with nothing

So please

Be strong

Day will break

It wont be long

Im cracking, breaking, dieing

Wishing, thinking, fighting

Screaming, pleading, cring

If you take you

You take me

Two birds with one stone...

But im not ready to leave...

So please

Hold on

Day will break

Wont be long

So please

Hold on

Help is comeing

Be strong

PIG Rant

It is rare occation that i rant

But

This is a special rage inside of me
And it will not be contained

No More


"You are so beautiful"
"I never want to do anything to hurt you"
"Your eyes say it all"
"I wanna be with you forever"
"I just wanna hold you"
"I miss the sound of your voice"
"I miss your smell"

"I love you"

PIG
PIG
FILTHY PIG

IT DRIVES ME CRAZY!!!!

All of thease..

Fithy
Worthless
Sex driven
Hormone filled
Meaningless
Negative
Sceming
Arrogant
Big headed
Carless
Conceted
Fussy
Dogmatic
Inconsiderate
Flaky
Narsasistic
Loud mouthed
Manipulative
Quick Temperd
Rude

Males

DO NOT GET ME WRONG

i dont think all men are like this

But, some are

And they are the WORST

A girl is fragile
A wine glass
A good china plate
A porclin doll
A stain glass window
A rose

Delecate

And when a PIG comes in contace...

well, lets just say

Good luck gluing your glass together
Nice job trying to tape that plate...
Sorry about your doll.. it was so beautiful before

The damage is perminate

So to all you guys who may read this rant

Guard your heart
Be gentle with us
Take extra care
Make sure you mean what you say
Be careful how you do things

Because if you really love us like you say you do
You will do all thease things mindfully

Do not be a PIG

Your Trust + My love

They say love and trust go hand in hand

I give you my trust

If you love me
You wont break it

Will you?

But if you do
Does it mean you love me any less?


Do i have to love you any less?


The feeling
Of hurt
Disappointment
Emptiness
Sadness

The fact you ripped me appart...
It makes all thoes feelings flourish
Like a rose
They blossum
Into beautiful fits
Bolts of rage
Cloudy emotion
That drop tears
My emptyness flows like a river
My sorow sprouts a fountain
And bitterness infects my skies

And you

Where does it get you
A higher social status?
A place?
In a vicious chain
A "friend"
A pal to gossip with

Does breaking our trust
Our love
Release bitterness you hold tward me?
Does a feeling of accomplishment wash over you

A high tide of self indulgeing rage
A sun ray of pride
A field of spitefull weeds
To fill a vace
Placed in the empty spot i left in your heart

After your fit

Do you feel better?

Was it all worth it

What you felt was meaningless

I try to tell myself

Your high tide
Was a cry for help

Your ray of pride
Was emotion waiting to be held

Your vace of weeds
Was clutter
Something to occupie you

That empty void
Is a space for me

And only me

So
We get down to it...

Do i love you any less...?

No

Do you love me any less...?

Well, thats for you to decide

Please Be Safe

Dont let this happen to you on the 4th... be safe safe safe... or i will cry!